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.Tuesday, June 20, 2006 ' 1:37 PM Y

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tday the soloist came (:
for the clarinet concerto.
we were, ah hem,
shit
for the 3rd mvtm.
lols

i really dno what to do now >.<
bleah.
i know daddy really loves that place a lot
but its just
i get a dark feeling when i go in
i dun really like that kinda feeling
=.=

daddy says its cause of the big patio out there.
and he really has a um
sense of belonging there.
and that all the big empty space is what hes
really looking for

he really wants that house
bt mum does not like it ><
and yeah, theres a forest behind the house.
lols
theres a road in btwn though.

i know daddy badly hopes for us
to agree on that house
but
its confusing.

one part of me wanted to make my dad's life easier
let him get his sense of belonging,
he grew up there
after all he has worked for us
he certainly deserves more than our agreement of a house.
a support is the least i could do for him.

but on the other hand,
i just dont.
somewhat, DARE to live there.
i mean it seriously gave me some sorta of
dark, enclosed feeling?
bleah

well its like, the hse is really dark.
the stairs are dark
the area below the stairs are dark
the rooms are dark
the whole 2nd level is dark.

i know it may be because of the big patio out there.
but. i just dont feel
gd
-.-

and also, it has a perfectly reasonable price.
no, a VERY gd price.
considering the land area is like
what, 3 times our current hse.
you can even build a small shelter in all that big space around.

bt i dno.
final decision of course is with my parents.
bt i know they will want us
to agree willingly, live in a place
happily.

bleah. i dun wna think anymore.

sryifyoustillcantforget..
imsorry..